Beautiful essays always from Stupid Ugly Foreigner:
Some people are better apt to deal with a second language learner. They have the patience, or the know-how, or just a sympathetic ear. They know how to collect the gist from the shambles of phonetic and morphemic scraps blizzarding out of another’s mouth, how to take these torrents of meaning and construct them into something vaguely resembling their own language. They are willing to put in the work to understand what you are saying, and become far more capable than anyone else in managing it. And when you speak to them, the feedback loop of positive reinforcement and actual exchange makes the language happen. You’re doing it!
But if you meet someone not ready for the challenge, suddenly you’re back to not doing it at all.
Just a lil update while my nail polish is drying ^^
I haven’t been on at all lately except sometimes on my phone but even then I keep getting distracted by texts from my: kind of sort of boyfriend? I dunno what the fuck is going on here. He told me that he likes me. I wasn’t sure what that meant at first so didn’t reply. He told me that he was wondering what my opinion was about him liking me and I was like: duh I like you too! So then since then he’s acting like we’re dating. As in: I don’t want you to go to the club [in a hypothetical situation since I don’t know any girls here to have a girls night :( ] to which I said: too fucking bad! haha ~ So yeah.
And umm I’ve been working a lot. I still think it is a pretty mind numbing job but it pays the bills so I don’t give a fuck lol. I think me and everyone else they have hired before me/after me is hating it/wants to quit soon. Which explains why they hire nearly every person who walks in. I think it is mostly just bad management but not from the two top managers but the middle managers. They aren’t friendly or helpful for new people and stick to their little core group. Along with ignoring you and snapping out a lot. So … yeah. I think the application deadlines for the science related work I applied for finally closed today so I’m hoping to hear from them^^ If not I’m thinking I’ll move to part time days at Zara and get a job at a restaurant. There is a Joey’s right near my work and that would allow for me to have time in between shifts. Actually though I’d love to work in a Japanese restaurant! There are a lot of upscale fusion places here that I could make sweet tips at and I would actually like the food. Not that Joey’s is bad it’s just kind of middle of the road for me.
My dad is… back? He hasn’t apologized or really changed at all but seems to want to buy a lot and he’s put me on his insurance and is basically forcing me to drive his care while he’s in Calgary … Nothing I’m not used to with my parents. They never deal with problems just try to buy it away. Oh well. It’s kind of nice to know that if he’s up for the weekend I can use the car and go to Banff or something ^^
Living with 3 people in this place though: OMFG so annoying. ONE BATHROOM:(
Also it’s annoying after working 8 hours to come home to a billion and one questions: how are you? Do you want supper? Are you sure? blah blah blah blah blah. SHUT UP I NEED 5 FUCKING MINUTES TO BREATH! god.
Also I really think that not eating a lot of meat/carbs/heavy meals in Korea contributed to my Crohn’s going into remission and I’m trying to remember to be that way here. It’s difficult because meat/carbs are every fucking were! Also I think I didn’t eat a lot of pastries/sweets because they aren’t that good in Korea but here they are so fucking good. It is near torture to go past a Cookies by George and NOT GET THE FUCKING NANAIMO bar! omg But it’s for my health [and I gained like a Kilo coming back because I was eating until it hurt at every meal because I felt bad wasting such good food! I need to remember that there is a lot of good food now and it’s not going away!!] <— not that I didn’t think Korean food was good but I mean I didn’t get to have roast chicken and steak and mashed potatoes and Cesar salads every damn day if I wanted so yeah.
Anyway that’s life. I miss my friends in Korea a lot. Fuck I miss the updates of people on here from Korea as I am never able to scroll back far enough to get to them and I’m just missing everything :( I hope every single one of you is doing well <3 And now I better go to bed~
“There was one of his lonelinesses coming, one of those times when he walked the streets or sat, aimless and depressed, biting a pencil at his desk. It was a self-absorption with no comfort, a demand for expression with no outlet, a sense of time rushing by, ceaselessly and wastefully - assuaged only by that conviction that there was nothing to waste, because all efforts and attainments were equally valueless.”—F. Scott Fitzgerald (via monsta)
“Ninety-five percent of people who walk the earth are simply inert. One percent are saints, and one percent are assholes. The other three percent are people who do what they say they can do.”—Stephen King, The Dead Zone (via thisisnothowtheworldends)
Oh I am home from my date. Where we furthered our wedding plans lol!! He’s going to “chat” with his parents about me. And I’m debating him on kids as I want none and my compromise is either test tube babies or adoption~ lol~~~ oh also I’m tipsy from my glass of wine so the world feels wonderful~
And today sucked slightly less at work ~~
Wow. I read her article. It was a long squabble over 3 chicken wings. I believe that ppl are either the Audience or Directors. The Directors create, manipulate, and influence the world, the audience reacts to it.
hmm I never thought of it that way. Either way you put it though I’m not really one or the other and it’s kind of situational!