Sequined Strawberries

No, I don’t think I do. I mean obviously sometimes I’m munchy but like, a day or two worth of calories in a sitting, probably not.

Its official, its a yearly tradition. Every year at about this time, I decide I’ll re-watch Buffy the Vampire Slayer. Every season. by the time I’m done, it will officially be summer <3

I’ll tell you what I don’t like. I don’t like when you have someone sit down with me and WATCH me write down my schedule for the “after school” classes and this includes the “opening ceremony” … only to then wait until a full 40 minutes past when I COULD HAVE LEFT, to tell me, oh btw why aren’t you leaving? Oh the opening ceremony, didn’t you know, its on Friday. FUCK YOU! I really do have things I would rather do than sit at an uncomfortable chair with a nasty slidey pillow on it from a million years ago and try to make the FAKE windows old as shit pos computer play a god damn youtube to entertain myself since I’ve had nothing to do since: oh I dunno maybe 3pm.

GARRGGGG - okay rant over, clearly it was a miss communication and not “korea” but the people specifically involved. But still … seriously. Life is precious, I’d prefer you don’t waste mine.

I want to feel like myself again. It’s not so much about the weight as the energy I used to have and the way it feels when you run and move and use your muscles and you feel strong and sure. Since Crohn’s I haven’t felt that way. I really miss it. So yes I am losing it for myself but I am getting so much more in exchange~

That I won’t ever really be happy with my hip/thigh area. I feel that it is not proportional to the rest of my body size. I don’t know that anyone else thinks this, but I have been at 100 lbs before, and at that time I didn’t think my thighs were small. Maybe if I lost the weight in a more healthy manner than at that time (I lost weight due to my Crohn’s) it will be different.

I think she is really beautiful. I love pretty much every feature! I mostly pick her because for whatever reason, my minds picture of myself has this hair color, because for a long time I did have this hair color. But in reality i have a dark blond hair. I always feel its easier to imagine “getting thin” like someone you already kind of look like? I don’t know if that makes sense lol~

If I had to pick a second inspiration it would be Sara Michelle Geller. LOVE her.

I am five feet exactly. That is to say:

152.4 centimeters.

Not much. It’s hard to be this short because even a little gained weight looks like a lot. Also people always underestimate me. Which can actually be a benefit in some cases, but I do feel I have “short man” syndrome. I’m constantly trying to prove myself.

Day 1 - Your Stats

Age: 25

Height: 5’

Starting Weight: 127 lbs (December, 2010)

Current Weight: 115 lbs

Ultimate Goal Weight: 105 lbs